One glance back and I see darkness.
I’ve allowed myself to grieve, to be bitter, to feel defeated.
I’ve used the anger to answer questions that no one else can.
One glance back and I see a dark unknown.
I’ve felt lost, isolated, ostracised and doubtful.
I’ve used the silence to find myself again.
One glance back and I see change.
I’ve felt confused, worn out and had forgotten where I was headed.
I’ve used new feelings to ride this wave.
One glance back and I see forward.
I’ve felt hopeful, happy and centred.
I’ve used the darkness to shed new light.
One glance back and I feel you.
I see you, I hold your hand, I let you go, and I take your light with me.
I know you, I know who you are, and I carry you with me.
Always my darling.
To my beautiful Mum on the fourth anniversary of the day my heart broke. Piece by piece, it mends.